vendredi 30 septembre 2011

The good germans don't always tell the truth...

Much has been said already about how the markets and therefore, savage capitalism rules the world. Almost none, about political nonsense blaming on the markets when confronted to their decisions. By not talking clear to their constituents, politicians are playing a 'no winner' game, which isn't the same as a draw. Whether moral or not, markets don't risk a penny if they will lose it. Political flaw works in the opposite way. Politicians will risk with populism, when losing. The ethical movements of our politicians can be questioned, but democracy is not always a reasonable output. Voters are willing to support nonsense as long as this nonsense never becomes real. Our politicians democratic transactions need to examined by truth and nothing but the truth.

State of the World's economy (US, Japan, UK and the EU)

The current financial position (private and public indebtedness, fiscal balance, trade balance, savings rate) of the European Union (EU) is much better than any of its major partners. Therefore, why prospects are so bad? The potential growth of the european economy to pay off its debts, maintain a sustainable health of public finances (high cost of unemployment and social security), pursing trade surplus that will secure current european wealth is unclear. Investors are pushing for single markets rules such as fiscal union with single european VAT, corporations tax rate and labour code, which needed to be implemented as the Euro was introduced.

German contribution to the European Financial Stability Facility (EFSF)

Together with neighboring France (both AAA debt issuers), they make up for 47% of the total fund liabilities. The effective interest rate to which the fund is borrowing from the markets nears Germany's borrowing interest rate (at lowest in history). The fund (rated AAA by major credit agencies), will rescue european States unable to finance themselves at the markets. Currently, Ireland and Portugal are among countries rescued under this financial facility programme (Greece has been bailout under another financial programme that includes the EU and the IMF). To be able to lend the fund needs to borrow as low as possible. Austria, the Netherlands and Finland may add credibility to the fund but with their low stakes they aren't dissuasive. Moreover, two big AAA countries with deep influential markets like Germany and France are in need and while French banks credibility struggles at the markets risking France's AAA rate with them (France will have to bail out its Banks), German contribution to the fund is the only credible source for the markets. To dismiss current debate in Germany as 'simply german greed' denotes a lack of understanding on how financial markets work. Germany is risking its AAA rate, will have eventually to bail out its banks (again) and already has a higher debt in proportion to its GPD (over 82%). Therefore, germans need to decide, whether they want to be Europe's paymaster or not? But why are we here?

GDP or Y = C + I + G + (X - M)

Y represents a country's total gross domestic product (GDP) or its income. C stands for consumption of individuals, I equals the total investment in the country (public and private), G represents the net position of government (taxes vs expenditures) and its trade balance (X for exports vs M for imports).

One can lie in politics but in math, it is not that easy. Because most of Germany's income comes from trade balance (Exports), Germany needs healthy financial customers that will pay off for its high quality goods. About 65% of all german goods are sold in the European Union, establishing that a disruption inside the Union will have direct consequences on german companies. This is partially true but for different reasons. The hard truth is that politicians in Germany have been playing “the jobs card” to actually cut middle class salaries, benefits and therefore, inflating company balances, big managers salaries and DAX profits. If Germany is exporting more than ever, its workers are earning less than ever (discounting inflation real salaries are at 1991 levels), government is asking for less corporate tax; what are companies doing with their export income? Just sticking it on rich shareholders pockets while export jobs represent less than 18% of total employment.

After the Hartz reforms, DAX dividends (pay out to shareholders) together with profits has soared to levels never seeing before in the German Federal Republic. The corporate tax rate together with the effective corporate tax rate (what companies really pay after discounting credits and exemptions) has been at its lowest since the foundation of the Federal Republic in 1949. In the meantime, poorly paid jobs have flourished together with the amount of workers applying for government assistance because their wages are too low to live from.

Politicians are responsible for decisions like: reaching poverty line salaries, no federal minimum wage, low company taxes, higher profits, higher dividends, rising inequality and rising poverty.

Living in a deflationary world

The culture of 'low and cheap' has arrived to stay. Politicians convinced by the idea that 'tax credits and exemptions' (less State revenue) together with lower social charges for employers and low workers salaries would push costs down and therefore, boost economic activity is flaw because german economic activity is directly attached to its partners performance. In 2008 as global trade collapsed, Germany saw its GPD shrink by 5% (higher pace since the WWII). In the meantime, politicians were 'rescuing' regional banks (Landesbanken) well-fed with subprime mortgages that added up 15% in debt to GPD. The german economy is a reflection of global demand: as world trade grows, German exports rise not so workers wage.

Politically flaw and intellectually dishonest

Under this 'deflationary world scheme' a worker's salary is considered a 'company cost'. But does it? Of course not. A worker's salary is its capacity to buy (purchasing power), acquire goods and services available in the markets. Therefore, higher salaries (increase demand) mean higher consumption (increase profit). Increase demand and increased profit, means companies can put more money into the bank, pay their staff more and pay dividends to shareholders. Why not in Germany? Because politicians would have to confront their own lie: 1.export policy means salaries won't rise at parity with economic activity. If the wages of the neighbors ain't rising, yours can't rise either. 2.Export jobs which account for almost 18% of all jobs are ruling over the rest because companies not only finance campaigns but lobbies for friendly laws. 3.Inequality will continue growing because workers aren't shareholders and therefore, aren't profiting from 'export gains'. The workers will continue to pay (working for less) and the shareholders will continue to profit. 4.Most german workers can't buy their own products and moreover, you aren't in charge of your future.

Good Europeans vs Bad Europeans

While politicians labeled countries and their citizens as good and bad based on economic premisses (debt, deficit, indebtedness, trade balance) they failed to come up with the truth. In 2003 while Ireland and Spain where among the outstanding countries fully complying with the Maastricht Treaty, Germany and France asked for 'relaxed conditions' breaking up the rules for the first time. Who was bad back in 2003 or who's lying now? On past August, politicians of the two countries proposed a 'true economic government'. Certainly, we have only hear one part of the story and there's much to be say.

samedi 10 septembre 2011

Con adjetivos no se detiene el Suicidio Colectivo...

Decia Honore de Balzac que el suicidio colectivo iniciaba con una no-accion individual, iniciaba con un no-hacer individual. “Como esto no hay quien lo arregle no sere yo, quien actue para deternerlo. No sere yo quien promueva el cambio”.

Desde que se publico el informe de la división de derechos civiles del departamento de justicia federal sobre la policía de Puerto Rico y ya sea en programas de television, radio, prensa escrita, corrillos informales de ciudadanos y hasta en las aulas universitarias se han sucedido adjetivos tras adjetivos para clasificarlo. En 144 paginas se categoriza institucionalmente el estado de situacion de los derechos civiles en Puerto Rico y segun, las tertulias ciudadanas “lo que todo el mundo sabia”. En el pais donde de todo se habla, comenta y opina, lo imprescindible pasa a ser accesorio y frivolo, tanto asi, que no tenemos en la television comercial ni un programa de analisis y debate ni uno de entrevistas sobre nuestro modelo de pais. ¿Que pais somos y que pais queremos ser? ¿Que es lo que todo el mundo sabe? ¿Que es lo que todo el mundo cree que sabe? ¿Que es lo que todo el mundo sospecha? ¿Por que no dejamos de rumorear y hablamos? Es esa habilidad tan cotidiana de renunciar al dialogo, lo que provoca el rumor como noticia y reproduce “lo que todo el mundo sabe” en los comunicados de prensa no-publicados mas contundentes.

Crisis etimologicamente significa, nuevo escenario inesperado, punto de inflexion. Hay una ruptura del entorno conocido y que hasta ese momento habia sido estable. En su contexto negativo, la crisis suele provocar dolor.

Los sintomas de una sociedad en crisis:

  1. Corrupcion – la aceptacion de la corrupcion institucional asi como la privada es alarmante. “Sabemos que no podemos confiar en el gobierno, en las empresas ni en nadie, pues todos nos van a engañar y si me tocara a mi engañar mejor aun”, es la consigna de muchas personas.

  2. Narcodemocracia – un pais donde se piensa que votar es democracia, no interesan la calidad de las instituciones, porque no las comprenden. A ese individuo no se le puede llamar ciudadano porque esta desfranquicido de su Estado. Ni asume obligaciones ni reclama derechos y aceptara la criminalidad a todas las esferas de la sociedad.

  3. Infraestructura no adecuada – Si no hay instituciones pero si mucha corrupcion la analogia es clara en cuanto a los presupuestos inflados de faraonicas obras de infraestructura que financiaran los bolsillos de unos pocos, las pagaran unos muchos y donde no habra el mantenimiento adecuado para su optimo uso pues el desfalco proviene de lo faraonico. Cuanto mas grande la obra de infraestructura mas se pueden inflar los presupuestos de construccion.

  4. Pobreza estructural – aun en periodos de bonanza economica no disminuye, porque quienes sufren las consecuencias de la pobreza estan desfranquiciados del mercado laboral, conviven en infraestructuras inadecuadas y deficientes, padecen la corrupccion institucional, la narcodemocracia y peor aun, no tienen las herramientas necesarias para buscar soluciones a sus problemas.

Libertad sin oportunidad es un regalo endiablado – Margaret Tatcher

El Problema es la educacion deficiente e inadecuada que se provee. Una educacion que tiene que proveerle a los ciudadanos las herramientas basicas de “meritos y esfuerzo” que les permita funcionar en la sociedad. La educacion efectiva tiene que estar cimentada en un sistema de valores civicos imprescidible en el desarrollo social del ser humano. Tenemos que capacitar a los ciudadanos y darle valor a esas capacidades. Mientras, lo “bueno” sean las “cosas”, desvalorizamos a la persona, la reducimos a eres cuanto tienes y una vez en ese punto de no retorno, el apego a “las cosas” dominaran nuestros valores, convicciones, pensamientos y acciones.

¿Quien escribe el informe? Es ironico que quien redacta el informe es el mismo departamento de Justicia federal que defendio la constitucionalidad de la Base naval de Guantanamo como centro de torturas encubiertas. Ese departamento que nego los derechos humanos a los seres humanos alli confinados, jamas concedio la oportunidad de juicio y posterior sentencia y socavo nuestro sistema de valores bajo el que se rige un sistema judicial que dicen defender y atesorar. Quien dice que se atropellan los derechos civiles en Puerto Rico, ha promovido el atropello. Es ironico.

Decia Foucault, que criticar no es solamente exponer que algo no nos gusta o esta mal. Tambien hay que proponer.

Combatir y Proponer – El Cambio tiene que comenzar en la persona. Tiene que comenzar en nosotros y en nuestros valores, convicciones, pensamientos y acciones. No salir de casa con la mentalidad “a ver que dia tengo sino a ver que dia CREO”. No basta con quejarse, hay que aportar ideas que por muy simples que a priori nos puedan parecer es nuestra aportacion. Tenemos que valorizarnos como personas, seres humanos capaces y valorar en otros sus capacidades.

Si no conoces a tus vecinos, es el momento que vayas a conocerlos. Igual y te sorprenderas que el o ella tambien queria dar el paso pero no se atrevia. Saluda con los buenos dias, buenas tardes, buenas noches a todas las personas que las que te cruces cuando sales de tu casa, en el supermercado, lugar de trabajo y ocio. Da las gracias. Hay que valorizar al individuo otorgale el rango de persona y alejarle de la caterogia objeto-cosa. Hay que tener convicciones. Detener los abusos. Ser cortes, responsable, puntual, menos violento y mas tolerante.

Todo esto es dificilisimo pero no hacerlo es el suicido colectivo. Para cambiar las cosas no basta decir que estan mal o que lo que tenemos no funciona, tambien tenemos que comenzar el cambio en nosotros.

mercredi 7 septembre 2011

Democracy, Revolts and Ideology…

Every time we hear someone speaking about democracy they mention elections as a primary prerequisite. And I personally don’t understand how without a proper functioning of Institutions (that indeed make up for a society) this voting prerequisite reflects the will of people. If political parties need to be authorized by the regime it was no surprise that Mubarak’s party won every election held since 1978. Tunisia wasn’t different either. Political parties weren’t allowed but people went to polls.

People is nowadays such an abstract concept. It is a very grey democratic concept basically trapped by ideology and “pseudo-ideologists”. I love when politicians specifically speak out about the benefits of having a democracy and right after smashed that same beloved democracy with no so much democratic laws. Just to get it right, democracy does not mean the will of the majority. And it makes no sense to keep pushing this ideal. Moreover, it is an illegitimate, dangerous and perverse illusion. Every time such a thought pop out, what politicians are doing is disfranchising us from our democratic model. They are treating us more and more like children and less as adults who are able to analyze.

In this quest for ideology our politicians are now trying to sell us (successfully by the way) the idea that Middle East societies are fighting for democracy and freedom. “Young Arab populations driven by Facebook and Twitter willing to die for democracy” is the headline. Well, the sad truth is that they aren’t. They are fighting against poverty, lack of opportunities, corruption, and abuse of power by the ruling class, underdevelopment and indeed, a better welfare society.

It is bread what engines demonstrators not freedom and what they care for is a government either democratic or not that impulses their living standards. To say the contrary is to deny that bad regulation didn’t cause the financial meltdown and that States deficits all over G7 nations were caused by banks bailouts but will be paid by social cuts. Save the banks, cut the pensions, educational and social programs. That’s ideological interest and greed!

In the meantime, all left wing parties push for more unemployment benefits while indeed where all their attention and efforts should be is into promoting sustainable growth to arise our workforce. The best social policy is work. Without work tendency is clear, radical extremists gain popularity and polarized our frustrated society. Let there be light.

dimanche 4 septembre 2011

Mujeres y cambio social

Un dia me preguntaron, mi opinión sobre como combatir el machismo en nuestra sociedad. Absolutamente, perplejo respondí que no era competencia de los economistas ese tema en particular. Sin embargo, como ciudadano privado podía dar mi opinión en una conversación privada. Ciertamente, en esa conversación privada redirigi el tema hacia mi primera novela donde de forma contundente expongo mi opinión. Hallese aquí esta:

[Doña María Isabel es una mujer muy inteligente, como la mayoría de las mujeres de su entorno. Escogió dedicarse a sus hijos y su marido con entereza, contruir un hogar de amor, paz y felicidad, sin renunciar a su vida profesional. Es una excelente diplomática y muchos dicen que mejor que su marido, con quien ha asistido a numerosas reuniones, entrevistas, convenciones y como no, galas. Es una mujer de un carácter muy fuerte, que lo aguanta todo, aunque no es machista. Es católica por tradición familiar, como ella misma se define y disfruta iendo a la iglesia y profezando su Fe. Eso si, a su manera.

En un mundo de hombres hacerles oposición ferréa sirve de poco. Para obtener mayores conquistas sociales siempre necesitaremos a los hombres y ellos siempre nos necesitarán a nosotras. Somos nosotras quienes les damos hijos de los que estarán orgullosos, quienes forjamos una educación, una casa y una familia. Somos nosotras quienes les damos forma y cara a la institución de la familia. Los hombres no son nuestros mayores enemigos, sino nosotras mismas. Somos nosotras, las mujeres quienes enseñamos a nuestros hijos a ser machistas, a no respetar a las mujeres, ser mujeriegos y antetodo les celebramos sus deslices. Nosotras, tenemos en nuestras manos el poder para cambiar el mundo. No esperemos que el cambio venga de los líderes politicos, cívicos o sociales. El cambio lo tenemos nosotras en nuestras casas. Nuestros hijos serán vecinos, policías, abogados, médicos, maestros, trabajadores sociales etc. Nuestros hijos serán quienes tomen las decisiones, por lo tanto, el trabajo de cambiar el mundo lo tenemos nosotras en nuestras casas. El éxito de nuestra sociedad dependerá de nosotras las mujeres. Seamos buenas madres, enseñemos a nuestros hijos el respeto a la vida; a la propia y la ajena. Muchas Gracias por escucharme”].

(Extracto sacado de mi novela "Soy tan pobre que lo unico que tengo es dinero")

samedi 3 septembre 2011

El mundo solo respeta a los matones... Ensayo a la Embajada

Londres, Inglaterra July 3rd, 2005

Ensayo de Maurito a la embajada.

El ensayo escrito en ingles decia asi…

La diplomacia crea la paz y construye la democracia para vivirla

En el hipermoderno mundo de hoy todavía algunas personas se dedican a creativizar sus pensamientos e ideas en formas tangibles e intangibles, que agregen valor a esta nuestra sociedad. Digo todavía, pues debido a lo rápido que transcurren los cambios en esta sociedad, cada vez es mas difícil de apreciar nuevos inventos, creer que son útiles y asignarles un genio. ¿A alguien le interesa saber quien invento Google? Sin embargo, actuamos como si siempre hubiese existido.

Cada día hay más y más exposicion de ideas, son muchas las manifestaciones pero continuan siendo las puramente “comerciales” o comerciables, las que mayor relevancia adquieren en el todopoderoso mundo de los medios de comunicación. Dada la automatización de los procesos, que de otra parte, vemos como natural y como nuestra forma de vida, poco nos detenemos para pensar y/o analizar el efecto que sobre nosotros y nuestro medio ambiente tienen nuestras acciones, pensamientos e ideas (comerciables o no). Además, se ha propagado falsamente la idea de que en una sociedad comercial como la nuestra, el pensar esta reservado para los intelectuales (en escasez), para quienes escriben libros o para los bohemios dentro de la peyorización de soñadores sin oficio productivo, beneficio ni futuro.

Aquel que piensa, puede cambiar su destino y con ello su vida”; es un proverbial filosófico conocido popularmente. Sin embargo, cada vez son menos las personas que estudian filosofía y humanidades. Se dedica menos dinero a toda aquella rama educativa que fomente el pensamiento crítico, que fomente el análisis. Si es así porque no dedicar mayores recursos a un estudio más generalizado de las humanidades y la filosofía.

En contra de este proverbial pensamiento filosófico, hay otro también muy extendido que dice: “Aquel que piensa no es feliz, porque cuestiona su misma existencia”. Y me pregunto: ¿Realmente el cuestionar nuestra existencia nos hace infeliz o solo el darnos cuenta, que hemos empleado demasiada energia en actividades poco constructivas? ¿Es la insatisfaccion que sentimos con nuestro ambiente actual una decepcion de nuestras pasadas acciones? ¿Es nuestro sentido de responsabilidad el que nos obliga a disernir entre el aqui y ahora, o el futuro cercano?

Desde mi perspectiva, es ese sentido de responsabilidad lo que evita sentirnos satisfechos y como hay que encontrar un culpable, enjuiciamos a los críticos, nos batimos contra la crítica externa (responsable e irresponsable), el chisme, los rumores y antetodo, la peor crítica de todas, la autocrítica. Esa que esta influída por pasadas actuaciones y que carga el peso de los años, pues de ella depende la autoestima.

Yo utilizo mi autoestima para conocerme, preguntarme, tomar mis decisiones en base a mis valores y para enjuiciarme. Nadie, absolutamente más que yo, tiene derecho a hacerlo. Sin embargo, ¿Qué ocurre con aquel sujeto de autoestima inestable? Lamentablemente, nunca se rebela contra la dictadura del preorden social establecido, pues se sentiria “fuera de la sociedad”, sin embargo, no participa de la sociedad como sujeto activo (persona) sino como sujeto pasivo (cosa) cautivo del populismo de masas y antetodo, es esa misma sociedad de la que cree que forma parte, es ese preorden social al que cree pertenecer, quien rotunda y fervientemente le rechaza y se burla de sus capacidades; pasando este individuo-cosa socialmente aislado y frustrado a encadenarse con mas fuerza a la masa y a nunca rebelarse ni atentar contra un estilo de vida que le confiere el titulo de “cosa” y le impide ser feliz.

Ahora bien, nosotros como personas sociales en disidencia hacia la dictadura “individuo-cosas”, no debemos enajenarnos bajo premisas inexistentes, “a mi solo me debe interesar mi yo”, pues obviamos que existen muchos “yos” que forman el todo y que son nuestros maestros, policias, vecinos, cantantes, hermanas, tios y abuelos. La critica destructiva así como el chisme perjudican solo al “todo-persona” no al “individuo-cosa”.

Algunas personas tienen creatividad, tienen “Arte”, nosotros hacemos diplomacia. Equilibramos nuestra sociedad con una política de estabilidad basada en las oportunidades, donde todos podemos ser “parte activa” de la sociedad.

lundi 29 août 2011

Life's a picture... Van Dongen

What if. I do feel uncomfortable when such a situation came to me.
What if? I was raised with the mentality that pushing up and placing such questions was surviving never living. Living implies takings risks, being free, cautious of the actions undertaken but always moving. Life's about moving and breaking circles.

It means being able to decided for yourself what's best. Because best (in my family) has always had a happy connotation. What does make me happy? One should never forget that we are here to be happy.

Nonetheless, what if appears to my view as a captive paradox under which Foucault stated:
"the imaginary is not formed in opposition to reality as its denial or compensation"...

Sante Bonheur!
In the meantime, life's a picture, the rest is just paint... Van Dongen

vendredi 18 février 2011

Y me detengo...

Y me detengo...

by on Tuesday, March 30, 2010 at 9:35pm
Pausa... pausa es una palabra que hoy dia no conozco.

Pausa es una palabra que hoy dia no me interesa conocer. No me interesa saber que significa. No me interesa que signifique nada. No quiero parar. No quiero que me paren. No quiero pausar. Quiero vivir a tope, a todo gas. Quiero vivir con prisas, en fin sin pausa.

Porque cuando paro, cuando me detengo vienes a mi mente. Vienes a mi cabeza. Te apoderas. Te adueñas de mis pensamientos, mis deseos y mis sentimientos.

Quiero explotar y decirte que noche y dia me detengo.

Que noche y día me siento mal cuando no estoy noche!!!
Let's play @ Hyde Park

Two gin & tonic please / Dos Gin tonics por favor!

Dos Gin tonics por favor // Two gin & tonic please!

by on Wednesday, September 1, 2010 at 12:22pm

De rentrée...

You think so? Either you are or you are not. Love is not something you can put in doubt. It is a wave that takes you ahead. It is a punch that knocks you out. It is a fire burning inside you. True love should destroy us to resurrect us later.

¿Crees que si?

O lo estas o no lo estas.

El amor no es algo que puedas poner en duda

Es una ola que se te lleva por delante

Un puño que te deja K.O.

Un incendio que te abrasa por dentro

El verdadero amor deberia destruirnos para resucitarnos después.

Je suis un homme LIBRE...

jeudi 17 février 2011

Cristopher Street Day: L'actualite d'un combat / La actualidad de un combate

Compartir reflexiones significa tomar partido por aquello que consideras justo y luchar por una sociedad mas libre. Mas libre significa, que las barreras que alejan a los ciudadanos que viven en esa sociedad no existan. Ya sea en la educacion, la salud, la justicia social o el empleo etc. En el siglo pasado, el combate fue contra la esclavitud. A primeras de este siglo, la integracion de millones de inmigrantes durante la gran ola. En los 20 el derecho de la mujer de ser, de existir en la sociedad.

Hoy dia, este combate se llama homofobia, estigma hacia los enfermos mentales y otra vez "los inmigrantes".

Es triste ver personas infundiendo odio a otros y entre ellos. Mas aun lo es, las razones en las que se apoyan. No hay excusa para ser homofobo. No hay razon para odiar. En la actualidad de un combate que no termina, apelo al pensamiento individual de cada uno para cambiar todos aquellos prejuicios que nos encarcelan y nos esclavizan. Nunca desaproveches una buena crisis para mejorar en el dia a dia.

Los homosexuales son los judios de hoy dia, pero eso puede cambiar. Si y solo si, TU estas dispuesto a cambiar. No mas crimenes de odio. No mas prejuicios. No mas discriminacion.

From Russia with Love

From Russia with love!

by Sven Erricson on Monday, September 13, 2010 at 4:51pm.

Put your Ipod or mp3 in shuffle and answer with a song each of the following questions:

1. Male or female? Another Brick in the wall (Minitel Rose)

2. Describe yourself: Automatic Imperfection (Marlango)

3. How do ppl feel around you? Back in the USSR (The Beatles)

4. Current relationship: 3 minutes to explain (Fedde Le Grand)

5. How do you feel about love? 1939 Returning (Pete Doherty)

6. What is your life like? Every now is past (Marlango)

7. If you had one wish what would you ask for? We are alive (Paul Van Dyk)

8. If someone says 'is this ok' you say: Fuck You (Lily Allen)

9. How would you describe yourself: Hammah (Culcha Candela)

10. What do you look for in a guy/girl? Quelqu’un m’a dit (Carla Bruni)

11. What do your friends think of you? Try me (Robi Draco Rosa)

12. What do you think of your parents: We are your friends (Justice vs Simian)

13. What do you think about often? We’ll meet again – Paris (Pete Doherty)

14. What do you think of your best friend? You’re so great (Blur)

15. What do you think of the person you like? We might as well be strangers (Keane)

16. What is your life story? Noir Desire (Vive la Fete)

17. What do you want to be when you grow up? The song to say good-bye (Placebo)

18. What do you think of when you see the person who you like? Under the influence (James Morrison)

19. What will you dance to at your wedding? Save the last dance (Michael Buble)

20. What will they play at your funeral? Proper Education (Eric Prydz vs Floyd)

21. What is your biggest secret? You know i’m no good (Amy Winehouse)

22. What do you think of your friends? Amistades peligrosas (Ella Baila Sola)

23. How do you feel about love? Your kisses are wasted on me (The Pipettes)

24. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Paris (Friendly Fires)

25. What will you re-post this as? From Russia with Love


dimanche 6 février 2011

A polish bus...

A polish bus...

on Thursday, November 11, 2010 at 12:08pm

Ding dong, the bell is ringing and I continue my life as usual because I’m expecting nobody. Ding dong, the bell is still ringing and I stop to think for a second that out there might be someone waiting for me to open the door. That there might be someone waiting for an opportunity to appear or an old ghost to kill. A minute later, I’m still thinking about what kind of reaction I should want to have in such a case. Time never plays our side unfortunately so by this long waiting time there should be no one still waiting outside.

It is this thought about the reaction I want to have that remembers me that I’m not the Soviet Union and it is not possible for me to “central plan” my feelings or reactions. That by some way, we’re supposed to be able to leave this hyper modernized automatic world and to join a further galaxy were time means allowance to commit.

Sometimes, that’s a way to take decisions. Not taking them at all and just waiting for them to uncover as they once show up. Unfortunately, life is not about covering and uncovering. It could include them both but it’s a mined area. Life is all about choices and responsibilities, about decisions and opportunities, it’s all about bells and doors either opening or closing just in front of our noses. And buses. Yes, buses and I’ve counted them all.

During peak hours in a normal day there can be up to 72 buses crossing my eyes before I get on bus 71 or 72 depending on how fast the driver opened and closed “the door”. And that’s only in rush hours. How is it during off peak time? Actually I don’t want to know. A line that can be traced shows that I am determined to get on and off any bus as soon as it appears. Well, not any but… (NO CENTRAL PLANNING)

This is one of these mornings where everything’s freezed because of a cold night but I see it rather fresh than dense breezed. Moreover, I approach positively to the fact that there’s no one still ringing my bell but that there might be someone waiting for me to ring the bell. This is not a hunting-hunted situation but another stop to get on the bus.

This all… This all come into being in Warsaw.

Why do we write?

I haven't stop writing but I haven't posted any new entry here. The reason for it: Facebook! I have been using way too much its "notes application" in order to sort out my writing curiosities. As for now on, I'm sticking back again to my blog.

During this personal quest for writing, I have been asked about why not just starting over? And frankly, it was under my consideration. I have thought of that. But at the same time it will be like cheating myself.

Life isn't always straight. Life isn't always structured by chapters. And I personally don't think that's such a bad thing. Let's take back this blog that I started 5 years ago when I decided moving to Berlin... city, where I currently live...